I just finished Baby Reindeer. It’s intense of course. Varieties of abuse and mental health issues is the appropriate trigger warning. The biggest takeaway for me is living your truth. Speaking it. Not letting secrets keep you sick. I learned that a long time ago. I only hope I am continuing to put it into practice, but just in case, here are some messy truth blurtings:
I am the biggest I have ever been, I think. I’m trying my best to feel neutral about it. But I’m also scared because my body feels like shit. I miss how I used to feel in a smaller body. I don’t miss how crazy it made me about food. So…not sure what to do with that.
I know I need to stop smoking weed. For a long time. But I honestly don’t know who I am without it anymore. I don’t know how to exist without it. Also unsure as to what to do with that.
Good things: Having enough money to shop mostly secondhand and slow fashion. Employee discounts on super comfy and cute shoes. Shirt: Poshmark. Shoes: Vionic. Skirt: Nor Black Nor White. 3 femme necklace: Reesabobeesa